My Heart's Damaged, Damaged ♥

☆ Mario - Let Me Love You ☆

Mmmm ..... Mmmmm.... Yeah....Mmmmm....Yeah, Yeah, Yeah
Mmmm...Yeah....Mmmm..... Yeah, Yeah

Baby I just don't get it
Do you enjoy being hurt?
I know you smelled the perfume, the make-up on his shirt
You don't believe his stories
You know that they're all lies
Bad as you are , you stick around and I just don't know why

If I was ya man (baby you)
Never worry bout (what I do)
I'd be coming home (back to you)
Every night, doin' you right
You're the type of woman (deserves good thangs)
Fist full of diamonds (hand full of rings)
Baby you're a star (I just want to show you,you are)

You should let me love you
Let me be the one to give you everything you want and need
Baby good love and protection
Make me your selection
Show you the way love's supposed to be
Baby you should let me love you, love you, love you

ListenYour true beauty's description looks so good that it hurts
You're a dime plus ninety-nine and it's a shame
Don't even know what you're worth
Everywhere you go they stop and stare
Cause you're bad and it shows
From your head to your toes, Out of control, baby you know

If I was ya man (baby you)
Never worry bout (what I do)
I'd be coming home (back to you)
Every night doin' you right
You're the type of woman (deserves good thangs)
Fist full of diamonds (hand full of rings)
Baby you're a star (I just want to show you, you are)

You should let me love you
Let me be the one to give you everything you want and need
Ooh Baby good love and protection
Make me your selection
Show you the way love's supposed to be
Baby you should let me....

You deserve better girl (you know you deserve better)
We should be together girl (baby)
With me and you it's whatever girl, hey!
So can we make this thing ours?

You should let me love you
Let me be the one to give you everything you want and need
Baby good love and protection
Make me your selection
Show you the way love's supposed to be
Baby you should let me love you, love you, love you

You should let me love you
Let me be the one to give you everything you want and need
Baby good love and protection
Make me your selection
Show you the way love's supposed to be
Baby you should let me love you, love you, love you
You should let me love you
Let me be the one to give you everything you want and need
Baby good love and protection
Make me your selection
Show you the way love's supposed to be
Baby you should let me love you, love you, love you

Let me love you that's all you need baby

Boy , I want You back .
4:17 PM

☆ Mariah Carey - Bye Bye ☆

This is for my peoples
Who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby
Your man or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye
No, no, no
Mamas, daddys, sisters, brothers
Friends and cousins
This is for my peoples
Who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky
Cause we will never say bye
As a child there were them times
I didn't get it
But you kept me in line
I didn't know why
You didn't show up sometimes
On Sunday mornings and I missed you
But I'm glad we talked through
All them grown folk things
Separation brings
You never let me know it
You never let it show
Because you loved me and obviously
There's so much more left to say
If you were with me today
Face to face
I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on I wish
I could talk to you for a while
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by

And it's true that you've
Reached a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And be right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say
Bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye
You never got a chance to see
How good I've done
And you never got to
See me back at number one
I wish that you were here
To celebrate together
I wish that we could
Spend the holidays together
I remember when you used to
Tuck me in at night
With the teddy bear you gave me
That I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
You'd make it through whatever
It's so hard to accept the fact
You're gone forever
I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on I wish
I could talk to you for a while
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by
And it's true that you've
Reached a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And be right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say
Bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye
This is for my peoples
Who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby
Your man or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye
Mamas, daddys, sisters, brothers
Friends and cousins
This is for my peoples
Who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky
Cause we will never say bye, bye.

I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on I wish
I could talk to you for a while
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by
And it's true that you've
Reached a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And be right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say
Bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye

Boy , I want You back .
2:50 AM

☆ HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY! ☆

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF! (:
noone remember this time round..
but still i have to wish myself "HAPPY 21ST BDAE GIRL!".

Boy , I want You back .
12:01 AM

☆ it hurts. its disappointing. ☆

it hurts when i see those changes again.
and its disappointing that you did it again.
texting girls in wlny. changing status to dont disclose. withdrawn all yer pict with me.
its damn fuckup to see all this alright?
have eu ever ever spare a thought for me?
i hate it.
i nvr nvr like tish kinda insecured feeling.
things wasnt gud for me.
i thought eu will the one whos always there.
but.. i tink ima wrong.
trying to cope with my distorted life.
yet, eu just added salt to my wound.
simply hate it alright!

awhile more to my 21st bdae le.
but..
dun think i can be any happier.
already very sad that i cant celebrate and yet ima even more sad cause of what i have seen.
2008 is really damn fuckup can?

i used to look forward to 25june & 25july.
cos its my guy's bdae, and mine.
but this time round, 25th is a nightmare.
25may, death-date for my precious boy.
tho 2mths had passed.
but things really seems lyk ytd.
seriously, i miss eu!

i gotta be stronger than before.
ima trying hard to cope with everythg.
i wish i have more willpower.
someone pls guide me along.
ima totally exhausted with all things that have come my way.
i need a break.
really, a break from here..

boy, i lurve eu.
(:

Boy , I want You back .
11:47 PM

☆ random.. ☆

hasnt been blogging recently.
kinda lazy. and no idea what to blog too.
life has been okays for me.
1st week of work over.
was great!
life simply so fun at work. (=
time flies during work. and i din drag myself to work daily like what i used to be.
everyone treats me very well at work.
ima just a little girl to them in the office.
lunchs was on them daily.
esp my "papa", everytime bring me to eat gud food.
gonna put on weight rather then slim down again..
anyway, i looking forward to next week.
cos i can attend an auction next wednesday.
tml gotta work. but okays larhx. i can claim a day off next week.
hees* (=

next friday is my bdae le.
but..
hais..
cant celebrate.
and.. i dont think anyone remember also.
):
til now only my belurve mich & von dated me le.
anyway, hope i had a gud day!

thats the end for now.
kinda random.
but still its updated! HAAHS. =D

Boy , I want You back .
9:19 PM

☆ take me with eu can? ☆

could eu take me away with eu?
please..
i dun wana stay here anymore.
i hate the way i am now. things no longer the same.. never will it be the same.
i miss eu. will eu come back to me?
i seriously miss eu.
if not take me with eu?
ima crazy soon. i can no longer smile my way thru..
eu meant so much to me. thou i nvr show how much i care and lurve eu. but deep down in my heart, eu really that precious to me.
please give me the willpower to go thru all these. i really wish to give up and leave. but i cant.
i wana find justice for eu.
i wana the fucker who took yer life pay hard for this.
i yearn for yer return so much.
please guide me along and guide me thru.
i dunwan anything but yer safety in the other world.
i dunwan eu to go thru another hard life after this.
i pray hard for eu. please do the same for me.
and please look after those who drive and ride. please..
lastly, please look after daddy too.
every night i see him looking out of the window, my heart sank.
i can do nothing. cos he misses eu more than i do.
i know nothing can bring eu back.
i know no matter how much i cry, eu still be so far away from me.
till now, the scene at the hospital flashes back every now and then.
that very day seems lyk ytd.
eu know how much i wish to repair yer bike..
but its really beyond hope.
whats left is nothing but bad memories.
boy, jie always lurve eu.
eu know i do right.
muacks* see eu on this coming saturday! (:

its my first day of work today. (:
ima happy of it. hope everything will go thur smoothly.

TO: that one.
its alright that eu keep yer identity secret. THANKS for being so kind.
as for his fave food, everywhere can get too.
he lurve chix cutlet.
he lurve chocolate.
he lurve yishun 735 de bee hoon kuah.
he lurve stingray.
he lurve green tea.
he lurve long john sliver.
when he's young, he lurve egg roti prata.
he also lurve cha siew bao.
he got so much fave food..
but i think no matter what eu buy, he will lurve it.
thanks for going down.

boy, please bless this person who got eu the sunflower. i know eu will know who is he/she.
see eu soon precious..

Boy , I want You back .
9:13 PM

☆ HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY, BOY! ☆

07July2008

Happy Belated Birthday Boy! (:
though i blog late but i did went down to celebrate for eu.
hope eu like the chocolate cake i bought for eu and all those foods that we buy.
it will be the very last birthday that we gonna celebrate for eu le.
from next year onwards, we can only "celebrate" on your death anniversary..
thanks for everyone who has turned up. i really really appreciated. sorry for my
attitude. do forgive me alright?
special thanks to the person who bought the small cake and celebrated with him. ((:
boy, i know eu were there when we celebrated your bdae for eu. i know eu were happy to.
and eu know what? i dreamt of eu. boy, i know eu came to my dream to tell me eu are doing well at the other side. eu seems to put on some weight. but still i recognised the red-white strip polo tee and the 3/4 shorts, plus yer fave sling bag and the helmet on yer hand. eu were smiling at me while i was laughing at yer little fats eu had now.
thanks for letting me dream of eu. ima glad, ima happy.
happy bdae boy!

din manage to online these 2days as i was back home without my lappy.
to "that one", could eu kindly contact me and let me know who are eu? (:
im really curious who is the person who made the paper flowers and bought the sunflower over.
please contact me alright?

gonna start work tml le. wish me good luck! =D

was busy these 2 days.
went to tow boy's bike to idac. and searching for workshop that does insurance claim.
luckily dear manage to find one. (: thanks baby.
went to idac today to do the reporting.
): the moment i look at his bike, my tears drop down. haish.. i missed him so much.
i really wish the bike can be repair.. but i know, its beyond any cure.
after that went to kira to xchange my baby's mouse.
bus back to amk.
went back to rest and out we go to the workshop.
ima drained! but, i must get things done.
GAMBATEI O~

ANNOUNCEMENT!

another announcement to be made. take note for those who wish to pay my boy a visit this coming saturday!

this coming saturday 12/07 its my boy's 49th days. we will be going down to pray.

as for the time, i still yet to confirm with my daddy. will update everyone again.

so those friends of my dear bro who wishes to go down, do let me know alright?

thanks! (:

Boy , I want You back .
9:35 PM

☆ what's on my mind? ☆

promised to blog and update..
(:
here i am to do some updating.
hmm.. where should i start from?

congratz to myself! (=
resigned. found myself a job in propnex. finally its somethg related to real estate.
i think ima gonna stay long with this job and lurve it i guess.
job title although is only a admin officer. but ima really looking forward to work next week!
good luck & all the best to myself!!!

happy belated to my belurve darling!
hope eu lyk everythg i done for eu. ((:
brought him to DOZO.
had a wonderful dinner and little surprises.
back home to cut the cake i brought for him.
muacks* lurve.

at the same time, its been 1mth plus ever since he left.
i miss him so much can?
ima trying hard not to think.. but it seems to be so difficult!
that day just seems to lyk ytd.
every now and then, the scene at the hospital keep flash back.
the memories of him kept running thru my mind.
its hard to come to sense that he's gone.
daddy tried to drink to make himself sleep.
its hurts to see him this way.
ima upset that i cant do anythg to make him feel better.
i feel so lost without him around.
boy, i really miss eu so much..

mood hasnt been so good for me recently.
feel irritated easily.
and feel sad the next moment.
whats wrong with me?!
i hate the way i am now.
i hate it so much.
can someone lend me a good shoulder to lean on, and a good hug to assure me everythg is fine?
i simply got no strength to keep on moving.

i need a break.
i wana be happy.
but.. how?

ANNOUNCEMENT!

Babes & Dudes who read my blog, please take note:-

I WONT BE HOLDING ANY 21st BDAE PARTY/CELEBRATION.

reson being: my precious bro passed away recently. after talking to my daddy. i decided not to hold any celebration for my bdae.

but i do hope i can meet up with eu peeps, especially my polymates. i miss eu guys so much.

and friends who wish to meet up, do call me alright? i wana keep the friendship we had.

i've changed my mobile. please tag me for my no. if i happen to lost your no. in the process of changing phones and no.

thanks! (:

Boy , I want You back .
1:23 AM

☆ 郭静 - 不药而愈 ☆

its been weeks even since i last blog.

but right now, i still dunno what to blog yet.

just wana share a song/video with eu peeps.

like i always said.. sometimes a song can tell so much about my thoughts and feelings at this moment.

i will blog later as i got so much to update about my life.

stay tune.. (:

等你等到了冬季

雪飘进了我眼里

我试图去寻找爱情

和我们之间的关系

套上了你的毛衣

心更加冻结成冰

如果我先放弃爱情

我的痛会不会变得不药而愈看

伤心不能痊愈

我始终相信

爱你的勇气

明明说好是两个人一起去的旅行

怎么剩下我一个人欣赏孤景

看伤心慢慢痊愈

我会好好地安慰我自己

宁愿相信你只是突然改变了决定

去了另一个美丽城市

也等着我入境套上了你的毛衣

心更加冻结成冰

如果我先放弃爱情

我的痛会不会变得不药而愈

看伤心不能痊愈

我始终相信爱你的勇气

明明说好是两个人一起去的旅行

怎么剩下我一个人欣赏孤景

看伤心慢慢痊愈

我会好好地安慰我自己

宁愿相信你只是突然改变了决定

去了另一个美丽城市

也等着我入境看伤心不能痊愈

我始终相信

爱你的勇气

明明说好是两个人一起去的旅行

怎么剩下我一个人欣赏孤景

看伤心慢慢痊愈

我会好好地安慰我自己

宁愿相信你只是突然改变了决定去了另一个美丽城市

也等着我入

Boy , I want You back .
2:36 PM