☆ gastric.. ): ☆
stupid gastric problem came to haunt me again.
recently got some attacks on my gastric.
hate the pain.
is not bearable, yet i got no cure for it.
yesh, eu may want to ask me to consult a doctor. but.. what they gave me is just normal gastric pills/syrup which has no effect on me.
mebe should stop myself from taking spicy/sour stuff.
but is a big NO-NO! cos i simplycant leave without my chilli and sour stuff. =X
okays.
other than whining, i think nthg much i can do le bahx..
weather so bloody hot.
yet nthg could be done to chill it down..
if home has the temperature of my office, i will lurve it man.
its so chilly cool inside my office.
(: but sometimes it can get much colder.
how i wish the weather can chill down.
if not my mood will be so hot just lyk the weather.
i wish i could understand him much more better.
i dun see the gud about him.
why?
why do i have to see the bad side of his and get so irritated by it?
am i just asking too much?
or do i just need a little more attention from him?
i dun understand myself either.
i wish things can be a little more pretty between the 2 of us.
but..
ima just so tired of giving him.
i wana to be the one taking some time.
ima really really drained out le.
i have feelings, i have my dignity too.
wont eu just respect and treat me like a LADY?
please..
ima just so fucking upset when eu shout at me.
did eu ever know how the feeling is lyk?
have eu ever wonder how hurt my heart is right now?
ima just fucking tired of everything.
just just so tired..
the strong girl everyone knows is no longer around ever since 25may08.
standing infront of everyone now is a fragile girl who is breakdown every moment.
i dun need everyone to treat me with care.
i just need "you" to be more sensitive towards me..
smile & laughter has away been taken far away from me.
trying to stay strong is a difficult task.
best friends/sisters ive called no longer remembers me.
someone with friends around is so lonely..
i wish i have tried harder to mantain all my friendships.
to myself : JIAYOU GIRL! gotta be stronger alright? i know its hard but eu still gotta carry on walking down. the road is still far ahead. i know eu can do it de! hugs*
its been 42days ever since eu left..
Boy , I want You back .
10:44 PM
