DISAPPOINTED
–adjective
1. depressed or discouraged by the failure of one's hopes or expectations: a disappointed suitor.
2. Obsolete. inadequately appointed; ill-equipped
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i've gotta tell myself to take tings lighly.
i've gotta tell myself to only chose to believe yer words 10% out of the whole thing.
i've alrdy learnt to be independent; and i tink i achieved it.
i'ma getting tired of all those farking nonsense.
i'ma no longer the happu-go-lucky girl.
i've changed! what abt eu?
I SERIOUSLY HATE ALL THE CHANGES!
its been weeks ever since i last blog.
last 2wkns ima at Rosewood Suites.
i'ma physically & mentally drained!
i seriously need a break.
but i cant..
my HR is watching me closely..
what time i report for what and what did i do for the whole day. they will take note of all these. mebe sooner or later, they will ask me how many times i go to the washroom..
suddenly i feel so uncomfy. i hate to go work. ima lyk a prisoner with no freedom. but what to do. i have signed a tootpid bond. 8mths to go. i wish July '09 comes fast!
so many colleagues left. suddenly feel so lonely.. noone to gossip with. noone to eat lunch with me. -sigh-
i gotta tell myself to endure til july '09. = x
i tink ima really tired. i slept at 1 plus last night til 10am tish morning. after darling left hse for office, i went back to slp til noon. woke up watch my 少年四大名捕 til half way fell aslp again. -.-" i guess ima really drained out. then slp til 3 plus. woke up by a scary nightmare. i dreamt that my darling fell in lurve with a pretty babe. and he wanna ditch me and go with her.. the dreamt was so real that i cry out. gosh! anyway, dreamt is always the oppsite of the reality.
anyway,my bf ish still lying beside me right now.
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i hope and pray the dream ish just a dream.
thats all for tonight..
