this emo picture reminds me of my be-lurve boy. he used to have tish picture set as his MSN dp.
recently, those kind of lonely feeling fills up my heart again.
everything flashes in my mind over and over again.
images of the day i rush down to hospital in a cab praying hard nothing happens to you.
images of me breaking down when i heard from the doctor that they did their best but still eu went off without bidding goodbye.
images of your friends/buddy breaking down, especially yer girl.
images of us picking your ashes.
images of us celebrating your 19th birthday.
images of eu appearing in my dreams telling me to be strong.
seriously, till now i still hoping you will re-appear at home one day.
i just hope i can give eu a big hug and tell eu how much i lurve eu.
thou its been a year plus. everytime i will remind myself how eu look like. how eu smell like. how eu smile. how eu throw temper. i just so afraid i might forget how eu look like as time passes.
boy, how are eu?
p.s : do come to my dream alright? i will be waiting for eu. i got so much to tell eu. i got so many things that are waiting for eu to advice me. please..

its been so long since i blog.
im tired.
really really drained.
i will try to upload some picts of last sat's advance bdae bash for Dan & my Baby! (:
meanwhile, thats all.